About Me

Hi! Welcome to Restart. I'm Brenda and I live in The South. I'm just a lady that loves her family and sharing my life.That life has made a major change after 29 years of being wife and Nana. Now I live for me. I have dreams that I had let die and today I must live them. God has blessed me with a second chance at life and I desire to live it to the fullest.I am into eating healthy,exercise,running,hiking and bike riding. If it means staying in shape and feeling good I am all for it ....other things I enjoy or cooking, decorating,thrifting,travel and walking where history took place.


Friday, May 10, 2013

God doesn't make MISTAKES

Have you ever found your self sitting there thinking...this had to be a mistake or was I a mistake? Im here to tell you today the answer is NO. There is a reason for everything that happens in our life. It is all up to us to what we will do with it. I know it isn't always easy and so many times the enemy comes to lie to us and beat us down and many times we fall under that lie.Today I feel lead to share a couple of areas of my life that I pray will help you that have had this feeling.

                                                                         New Living Translation (©2007)
"I knew you before I formed you in your mother's womb. Before you were born I set you apart and appointed you as my prophet to the nations." 

First let me start with my birth.
 I was born.
 April the 13th to two of the most loving parent's I could have ever ask for,BUT people do things out of ignorance. I was born the last child and BABY...oh yea im proud of that. All of my life as I was growing up when my dad would introduce his family these would be his words " This is my wife Freddie and our children Raymond,Debi and Richard" then he would get to me and say he gave us three before we had our little MISTAKE.This went on all my life and yes it was a big joke to him,but not to my little spirit. The words and power of our words are so important. When I got older and we traveled as a group and sang in churches the same thing would happen."this is my wife Freddie,my son-in-law,Brian and our little MISTAKE" . After many years of this and I have to admit some healing God showed me he doesn't make MISTAKES!!! He makes blessings and knew each of us before he formed us. So one night when we were in Alabama at a church the same thing happened,BUT at this point I took the microphone and said " Im not a MISTAKE I am a blessing because my God doesn't make mistakes" After this day my dads eyes were opened to words that had been spoken all my life and my eyes were open to the the fact that God picked me and sent me to the parents he wanted me to be raised by.

Now lets move forward to my marriage and divorce
. I meet and married my Ex husband when I was 18 and was married for 29 years before it ended. We had three beautiful children that I am so proud of,BUT when my husband left I didn't feel this way. Night after night and day after day I felt like why? what could I have changed? why did I give my life to this man? Was it a MISTAKE to marry him? Today I can give you this answer NO it wasn't a MISTAKE. God knew what would happen in my life,but he also knew that each step in my life would make me who I am today. 

Putting the two together
   The enemy would like nothing better than to keep you down and feeling you have no future. He will go back in your life when something happens and use anything he can!!! I know after Brian left and I felt so beat down I would start to hear the words  "This is our little MISTAKE" and then he would try and torture me with words like "If you would have done this different" " You can't even keep a man" "You have been married all your life and you will never make it" it went on and on day after day until the day I took a stand the same way I did when I took that microphone at church. Devil " My God doesn't make Mistakes"
So I say to you today if you are reading this and found your self in areas in your life that caused you to feel this way...You and anything you have endured in life WASN'T a MISTAKE.

Monday, May 6, 2013

Determination Or Excuses

Let me just say before I ever start this post it IS NOT about any one person. This post comes from a combination of things I have endured and watched others endure. 
I also should let you know this is a rant and if you decide to get angry im sorry.
I came in from the bike trail today and fixed something to eat and decided I need to soak in the tub..see my ankle was hurting some. After a warm bath I decided to write this blog. In the last few days it seems every where I look I see excuses of why people CAN'T do something. Growing up I remember my dad saying "Can't never could" and man was he correct. I was raised to be a fighter and determined ..some would call it hard headed. I love and try to be understanding, but I don't deal well when people always have a reason why something can't be accomplished. 

New Living Translation (©2007)The tongue can bring death or life; those who love to talk will reap the consequences.

I just love this scripture and it was taught to me most of my life. Oh I assure you I have been at points in my life that I didn't speak life. I can only preach what I have been through. People look at me today that don't know my past and haven't watched my journey and say what gives her room to talk. Well I promise I have been there and done that and have the T-shirt!!!
I spoke in the beginning about my ankle hurting..how many of you know that the lady you see in the photos riding her bike,working out and loving life at one time had to be in a wheel chair? Yes you read right. The year before my husband left me I had my right ankle crushed,my toe on another foot cut off, a wreck and after bleeding for eleven weeks a hysterectomy. If anyone ever had a reason to give up it was me. Not only did all these tragic things happen,but I lost my mom and then the pain of the man I loved and devoted my life to was gone. Oh there was times I felt like I wouldn't make it. I had to dig down deep and grab every ounce of determination I could find. I would wake up in the mornings and choose to change my life..choose to live. Day by day and month by month I started to see ME" the bull dog" the one that grabs hold and doesn't let go. I also used the scripture and decided to speak life and not death. Oh yea many times I caught myself saying thing like I can't,but then stopped and changed it.
I just want every person out there to see that YOU CAN..it maybe weight,drugs,alcohol,death,divorce,pain in your body,but no matter what it is we are all equal and Gods promises and strength are for you too. He is no respecter of persons.
Today I ask you to see your self as the winner you are ..be determined and speak life .
The only way not to win is to never start

Sunday, May 5, 2013

My family is my heart

Just sitting here this morning with a special little man in my bed drinking coffee and thinking...My family is my heart. Saturday I was going to keep three of my grandbabies so I called to get another one that is very special to me. Yea I know I maybe a sucker to take off on a day trip with four children,but they fill my heart.My family was my medication that helped me during my divorce. There were so many nights that I felt so alone and unloved,but having one of these sweet babies to stay with me was having pure unconditional love.I know that nothing can take the place of a mate and I trust that if Gods will one day I will share that with a great man,but until that time comes I will love my family.
I would like to say to you that are out there and are feeling pain find the sweet little things like time with your family to bring you love.
Four of my favorite people waiting on their train ride
Little man acting like a monkey
Having a Picnic in the park after our trip to the Zoo
My sweet grands about to ride the train..one isn't liking the noise
There is nothing like a date with a "Real Man"

Friday, May 3, 2013

Memories and Pancakes

What more could a mom ask for than making special memories with her daughter? HUM maybe some AMAZING Pumpkin Pancakes? That is just what I did yesterday.Yesterday was my scheduled workout,but when my daughter ask me about a bike ride I was pumped!! I love riding my bike,but I love her way more. I decided to get up and go get my gym in early and meet her on the bike trail. Man were we in for a surprise.I guess you would have had to be there ,but it got pretty exciting. I'll see if I can take you on our journey. When we took off we were not sure what our limit would be because this was our first time together on the trail. I had ridden  alone and April with her family,but today we were on a mission!! To start the ride off I checked my bike and we were on go. April took off first and I noticed her tire was low so we stopped to air it up. Little did we know that her tire had issues BUT we sure found out about five miles down the trail. We were clocking along pretty good when I noticed April had fallen behind.I not thinking more than she was tired went up ahead and finally stopped at a rest area.I look up a few minutes later and here comes April...what the heck is wrong with my girl? Something has gone wrong with her tire so I go to check it out.OH NO the tube is coming out of the tire and what are we going to do? Oh well lets take a break and think about this.We are setting there talking and enjoying the nature when all of the sudden we hear the loudest POP . We both are freaked out because we are just sure someone is shooting either out in the woods or at us.We both jump up and I guess the first thing on my mind is getting the heck out of dodge. I jumped on my bike and was ready to roll when I looked back and April is by here bike. Oh no she can't ride on the tire!! All of the sudden I hear her say " Don't leave me momma"I knew better,but im not gonna say I hadn't thought about it. At this point I figured what the heck if they were trying to shoot us they would have already so I climb off the bike to take a look at hers. OH NO the tube had blown up and that is what the noise was. Thankful no one was trying to kill us,but wondering what the @#$% were two women going to do with a bike a mile away from our van? We couldn't ride it or roll it so my wonder woman daughter decides we will carry it!!!Yes you guessed right we took turns carrying her bike for the next mile. Now we knew we were getting a good workout and that we did. After making it back to her house and yes very worn,but still pumping with adrenalin we laughed until we cried about our trip.I was having to much fun to leave. I decided why not stay and go to Zumba with her and my grandaughter .After a short rest and some good cold water April decided to make me some AMAZING Pumpkin pancakes full of protein and wow I sure enjoyed. Im not sure if I enjoyed being in the kitchen with my daughter or the pancakes best??? Hum let me see ok ok the PANCAKES.
WONDERFUL Pumpkin protein pancakes
After a great meal we finished our day off with a great Zumba class. I so look forward to making more Memories and Pancakes with my beautiful daughter.
My wonder woman daughter carrying her bike
Getting ready to ride
Momma has to smile lol