Allow me to share where I have been and what has been happening in my life. If you have been a follower of my path in life you know I lived in Mississippi after my divorce of 29 years. You also know that I have walked through some hard times,but with Gods help and strength I have overcome. Each day and each step we take is a journey that leads us where we are today.
Since my divorce I had lived in our family home where I had been over 15 years. Due to the court the home was put up for sale and in December a few days before Christmas we closed on it. If the holidays aren't stressful enough this added more burden to my life. Since I was 17 years old I never had to worry where I would lay my head at night,but at the age of 49 this was all about to change. For the first time in my life I was about to make decisions that were very scary to me.Not only did I have to decide where I would live,but pack up the last 29 years of my life and take another step. It is a horrible feeling to know everything you own and have given your life for can fit in a storage unit.
I was sitting there the last of Nov. still not sure of my next step,but knowing I had to take it. I was working day and night packing and boxing a two story house pretty much alone.Worn,but not defeated I could only trust God as to what would happen next. With many prayers and tears shed I pushed forward.It seemed after awhile no answer would come. I thought long and hard..maybe I will leave it in storage and travel...maybe I will go to NJ with my son...maybe I will move to North Carolina where a friend is. Each day I searched and prayed. The one thing I didn't desire to do and said I never would is move back to a small town where I was born. One evening as I was sitting in my bed it all came to me as if God was laying out a map for me or was it God because it was just what I didn't wanna do. I knew in my heart it was God and I had to do it no matter what my desires. It was on that evening that I made a step that I hated to take. I called my sister and told her I needed a place close to dad that Gods desire was for me to come home.
So many times in life we focus on ourselves when we need to focus on others. God started to share with me the importance of spending these special years with my dad. My dad had given his life for me and now it was his turn. Not only for my dad,but others in this area that needed me.
So with much fear I started to contact friends and family to help me look for a house. Please understand when I say fear it is because the first time in my life I would have my first place and do things alone I never felt I could. I look back now and see just how God works...A long time friend told me about the house in Springhill. Great I'll be near dad,but still have my own space. That day I contacted a lady about the home. When she answered the phone that day Im sure we neither one knew God had set it up. After a long chat I found out I knew her father and grew up a few houses down from him. Not only did I know him I played at his house so many days.The next step I was about to take was made much easier just in knowing this.
With each small step from the time my house had an offer on it until now are the steps that brought me where I am today.The steps were not easy and at times I felt blind and alone,but I never was.I can not say what my next step in my journey will be,but I know with God as my leader I will get there.
If I can share anything with you today it would be 1) God is in control even when we don't see it 2) You may not see the end to the path your are own,but if you take the steps it will lead you there 3) When you feel weak and afraid PUSH on
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